<~> Chapter 137I woke up to the sound of gentle knog. I sat up and rubbed my eyes. "e in," I called out.

  To my surprise it wasn't one of my girlfriends at the door but Raya. She was dressed casually but with her new looks, she was still a bombshell. I still didn't feel great but I was curious what she wanted.

  "Do you mind if I sit o you?" she asked.

  "Uh, sure. I don't really think I'm in the mood to... you know."

  She smiled. "I know, don't worry." She climbed up on the bed and sat o me. She leaned her shoulder against mine and just let silence fill the room.

  Once I got used to the feeling I looked over at her. "Did you... want to talk about something?" I asked.

  She gently picked up my hand and squeezed it. "Only if you want to talk. I heard a little bit of what happened from Torien and Bel."

  I felt ay my chest at her words. What did they tell her? What did she know? How would she see me if she knew—

  "Shhh." Raya leaned over and pulled me into a hug. "There's nothing to worry about hun. I'm not going to judge you. We don't have to talk about any of that if you don't want to. But if you do want to talk about it, I'll listen. I know it be hard to tell your lovers how you really feel. You don't want to hurt them so you carry all the pain yourself. So talk to me, I promise anything you say won't leave this room."

  I slumped against her and buried my fato her shoulder. I could already feel the warm tears flowing down my face. The vulnerable fox girl we saved that day now felt like a solid pilr for me to lean against. How quickly things ge.

  "On the first day I came to this world... I was raped."

  She squeezed me tighter for a heartbeat but she didn't say anything. She didn't judge me. She quietly hugged me a me piece together my thoughts.

  "It... it made me feel weak." I took an unsteady breath. "He ed one of his hands around my horn and held me in pce... I- I dumped all of the points I had intth and I still couldn't push him off of me. He held me down and fucked me like a fug animal."

  "Shhh, it's okay," Raya whispered into my ear as I sobbed. It felt like bugs were crawling under my skin trying to ret that night. It took me a little time but once my sobbing eased off I kept going.

  "He fucked my ass without any warning or preparation, I hadn't had anything down there before and it hurt..." I took a breath. The thing that haunted me most about the situation was now at the forefront of my mind. "The worst part... The worst part was... I came when it happened... my body liked it. Some part of me deep inside liked being dominated by someorohan me. ...The thought disgusts me. Especially because it was him."

  A f hand rubbed up and down my back. She still held me. Still forted me. I let go of the tight g of my bond to find her emotions wide open and bared to me. I only felt feelings of support. Sadness for what I had gohrough. ...love.

  I took a shaky breath. "Just as he finished Bel came into the room and hit him in the back of the head, giving me a ce to butt my head into him and break his nose. ...after that... I snapped a sve colr on him. I- I had it from when I freed Bel. I inally met her as a sve and bought her from the man who vioted me."

  I paused, unsure if I wao talk about the part with her. Even after the st admission I still didn't feel any judgement from her so I decided to tell her everything, I feel like I trust her. "After that... I used a paio ge him. I turned him into a woman, a e beastfolk, and stole some of his skills from him. That's... that's how I became a swordsman. I also... ged some things in his head. Made him submissive, made him crave sex. It didn't ge him directly just... rewarded him when he did those things. I... I fucked with his mind... Does that make me a bad person?" I sobbed into her shoulder.

  Raya rubbed my back. "I promised not to judge you and I won't. It's up to you if what you did makes you a bad person. If you feel bad about it, if you feel guilty, maybe it was a bad thing to do... But like I'm sure others have told you, you had justification, you had cause. I don't know if those things make up for what you did but however you end up feeling about it, you 't trol what you did in the past, you only trol what you do iure. If you think it was a mistake, never do it again. The only thing that would make you a bad person is if you know it was bad and you chose to keep doing it anyway."

  I sat with the thought for a while, silently hugging Raya as the tears tio roll down my face. I don't want to be a bad person. I want to help people. I... I don't like what I did to him, I think it was wrong. It's wrong to fuck with someone's head like that... ge who they are. I don't like that ability... I'm never going to use it again.

  I gasped as I felt something inside of me shift.

  [in of Succub removes [Karmic Hypnotism][in of Succub alters [Karmic Retribution]

  [Karmic Retribution - Innate Ability]Karma is normally subtle in its approa punishing the wicked, Karmic Retribution is not. The user gains the ability to punish misdeeds by turning the target's karma against them. While Karmic Retribution is active each attack made against someoh ive karma is afflicted with psychic damage in proportion to their ive karma and is forced to front the misdeeds they have inflicted on others.

  I suddenly felt a sharp pain stab into the front of my head like a sudden migraine. I began to relive the moment I ged him... her. I looked up at myself from her perspective. I could feel how good it felt to follow orders. I felt how horny it made me to debase myself and act like a dog. It felt so good, yet so wrong.

  [in of Succub alters [The Bitch's Curse]

  When the visions stopped and the pain faded, I could feel Raya gently shaking me. "Lilith! Are you okay? You just yelled out in pain!"

  I sniffed and wiped the tears from my eyes. "My in title just took away the ability I used on him... and the new one I got iurn punished me for what I did. ...it showed me how it felt. I was right, it's wrong to do that to someone..."

  She ed me back up in a hug. "It's okay. That's ght? It took that ability away, the ohat made you feel like a bad person, and the new one punished you. Justifications aside, that means you just paid for what you did to him, right?"

  Did it? "...I don't know if it works that way. Maybe. But even still, I made the decision o use that ability again and now I 't even if I wao. Like you said, I only trol my as iure." I took a deep breath aered myself. "I'm gd it's gone. Even if I was empted to use it again, just having it made me feel wrong."

  She tightened her hug. "Good. If it's any sotion, I don't think you are a bad person. It's normal to want to punish the people that hurt you. A, despite what he did to you, what he put you through, you still felt passion for him. Guilty for what you did to him. I think that's admirable."

  I sniffed again as my tears fell on her shirt. Her right shoulder was wet from all the tears I had cried into it. "Thank you for this Raya... I don't know how to thank you for... all of this..."

  She broke to look me in the eye. "o thank me Lilith. I do this kind of thing for people whenever I . And no one I've ever talked through their problems with has helped me half as much as you already have. ...Don't take that as me saying I'm only helping you because I owe you one. I would do it regardless, you're my friend."

  I smiled and scratched the base of my horn. "Thank you Raya. Really, it means a lot." Perhaps in my previous world she would have been a therapist rather than a prostitute.

  "Great! Now, you hungry? It's past the usual diime. The irls ate in the on room since you were sleeping. None of them knew what to do after you went to bed alone."

  I hesitated. "Is that alright? Aren't you rationing food?"

  "Well... Something tells me food will be less of a problem soon... The Madame and Grace have been talking to the girls and even I'm surprised at the number of people who want to take you up on the offer from the people she's talked to. It sounds like our family is going to be getting quite a bit bigger, mother."

  I made a gagging noise. "Please don't call me that. It sounds weird ing from someone I'd like to have sex with."

  "Oh? I was hoping that the fun night I shared with you and yirlfriends wouldn't be a oime deal. Looks like I shouldn't have worried, ime I'll o make sure to get to you before you go balls-deep in someone else. Not that I pete with a girl like Man. Mmm, the way she was looking at you st night gave me shivers."

  I smiled. "It didn't look like you minded much with how much you were enjoying Bel's pany."

  Raya blushed a bit. "Well... It's hard not to ay someone who literally saved your life you know. I'm really gd she en to me pying with her, and mmmph, that dibsp;Now that leasant surprise."

  "I'm gd you think so, she's a bit self-scious about it."

  Raya nodded. "I'm aware. You missed it when you were ed up with your kitty-kin but we had a nid teasing versation about it beforehand. Also, with our shapeshifting powers and the bond, it's hard to let that kind of thing bother you." She shivered. "Fug while the bond is wide open is something else. It's... indescribable."

  I nodded. "Yeah, there's really nothing like it."

  Raya leaned against my shoulder again. "It's not just the pleasure, it's also... the closeness. That's something you usually don't get as a whore. Sure some people are loving, sometimes too loving, but most of the time it's just... get them off and move on to the guy." She shrugs. "Not that I'm pining, I like those enters too, but the kind of intimate e I've felt with you and the other succubi makes me feel... part of something special."

  "How is Nadia adapting to the ge?" I asked.

  "She's really happy. I think she's happier than she was even before the ge. If you haven't noticed, she's ged a lot. I don't think she was happy with her looks before and now she's strutting around with newfound fidence. Even if she didn't look pletely different, people might still mistake her for a different persht now, most of the girls do think she's a pletely different person from the Nadia that lost an arm."

  I nodded. "What about you? You look quite a bit different too despite still being reizable."

  "Yeah I know! Most of the stuff I passed off as a new beauty regimen, makeup, and padding. I would be the first to admit it's a pretty farfetched expnation though. My tails are aory entirely." She flipped her three tails onto our p. They were very fluffy and looked pristihey didn't have a sirand of hair out of pce. I stroked the one on top as she tinued, "For now I've been shifting away my hands and tails when around others but as more of the girls transform I'll probably be able to get away with having them out in public soon. I'm a bit worried about when the secret leaves the brothel though. But I'm hopeful we'll figure things out."

  I was going to say something when Raya suddenly sat up straight. "ht! Food! e o's go down and chat with the others. At the very least we should talk to the Madame! I want more sisters!"

  I ughed as I followed the excited kitsuhrough the door and dowairs to the on room.

  Saine

  Hello! Raya is such a sweetie. I know this was kind of aional chapter but it's been a long time ing for Lilith. Karmic Retribution has been something I wao address for a while now, as the story developed it became clear that while she might use an ability like that in the heat of a traumatizing moment, it would be uhat she would ever use it otherwise. A few of you posted ents about it here and there and I was happy that so many people uood that about her character. I didn't want to say anything at the time because I didn't want to firm any spoilers but now that this chapter has nded I want to say hoy I am so many of you caught on. Thanks for reading everyone!

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